I failed my exams. Failure can be defined in a number of ways. It is the act that fails/an event that does not achieve its intended purpose/a lack of success/a person with a record of failing/an unexpected omission/bankruptcy/the inability to function normally. I've felt depressed because of this. I feel everyone is better than me. And as always, have done better even though i've studied harder or it feels like i've studied harder. Maybe i'm missing a vital ingredient that makes others score.
Depression is defined by at least 5 out of 9 symptoms and has to include anhedonia (lack of pleasure) and depressed mood. The 9 are Sleep changes, Anhedonia, Depressed mood, Appetite changes, Fatigue, Agitation or retardation, Concentration problems, Excessive guilt, Suicidal ideation (SADAFACES). I have been eating a lot and sleeping a lot. More than what is normal for me. And i've been depressed, yea kinda blaming myself for my sucky results, and during our depression case week. I think everyone in our group was depressed during that time as we were influenced subconsciously by the case.
I have to move house soon. The owners want to renovate this lovely apartment and so we are in the process of trying to find a new place. Me and fats went house-hunting yesterday. We saw one apartment close by but the price was a bit steep, maybe we can negotiate on that. The others don't seem keen though. Hrhr.. Back to house-hunting all over again. Packing, moving, unpacking. Organising phone, broadband, electricity and gas bills.The list goes on.
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